A Message from the Author: Dianne McNair
What Happened?!! Know How/Why? Yes?
No? Sorta? Let's look, because seeing the how/why will set the path for your release from the impact of it. Was
it their fault? (they did you wrong). Your fault? (you didn't know/didn't recognize the signs). Or...was it a
combination of both? Nope, wasn't right and wasn't fair. Should not have happened that way. Even so, it is what it is.
So what do you do about it? Where do you start? I'll tell you this much. Reflection brings Revelation and clarity of
mind. Once you are able to 'see' your issue clearly it will bring closure, free you, and give you room to rise from the emotional/mental
upset. Now the rest of your Life Journey can begin. You've got some more living to do and things to accomplish!
Question: Is your life overloaded with unnecessary weight put upon you? Is there an expectation by others that YOU
should absorb theirs and carry it for them? You need to decide what you will and will not absorb. Cut away excess baggage,
toxic things, circumstances, surroundings and people causing the hindrances in your life (yep, even the ones YOU allowed).
Turn the Page to see your potential and possibilities going forward. You were not created to lose. I learned this in my own
After a positive,
successful, productive life of stability, loving foundation and always having a reason to smile, my life took a
series of back-to-back hits. When I finished spinning, my world was upside down and bottomed out. I lost
three loved ones in three weeks (Mom being the greatest loss), my home and income before I could absorb each loss. I
chose not to 'go to counseling' as was strongly suggested by others (including my Pastor). I decided to sit at
my computer in the wee hours of the morning when I couldn't sleep and write everything I felt. It was my version of unloading
and outpouring. I was angry. Hurt. Felt betrayed by everything I was taught to hope for and believe. My 'diary'
was a Plaintiff's list of damages and the Defendent was God. I decided it was God's fault because I felt betrayed by
Him for the deaths we prayed against, as well as those whose actions contributed to my financial 'crash' and material
losses. I was a fighter who had lost too much, and a believer who could not find His Promises in any of it. I held
onto my pain, anguish and sense of doom too long.
Bad decision. It
led to a personal foul against myself, 'sitting out' on Life.' My misguided perception of defeat and doom was becoming
real. Since I couldn't talk about it I decided to write about it. By releasing pent-up sorrows onto my computer
screen, I thought this effort
would be a healing tool for me to outpour my pain and emotional/psychological disconnect.
what I tried to type did not appear on-screen. It morphed into a series of written messages of new reasoning, hope and empowerment
that gave me a New Vision for my life. Puzzled at the messages, I saw that the words were not mine at all. They were to
me, coming from somewhere I couldn't put my finger on. The 'instead' messages spoke new vision, possibilities and potential.
While 'New Vision' was not my intent (I was filing Treason charges against God, remember?), I saw that these unintended messages
could be helpful to others toward their healing, as it was for me.